Finding strength in the unknown

A couple of days ago I posted on Instagram that I’d be taking a break from social media for a while to enter a surgery/post-OP bubble. Well, sometimes things don’t turn out quite the way you expect.

On Tuesday, less than 24 hours before the surgery was supposed to take place, I got a call from the hospital coordinator who told me she had bad news. The surgery had been cancelled. Something about the doctor being sick. She wasn’t able to give me a new appointment, but said she’d try to find me a new time and let me know when she does.

My heart sank.

So, here I am again. Back with my best friend Uncertainty. Not knowing when I’ll get a new time. If it will be in one week or in three months.

It’s a luxury problem, I know. Because I can still exercise (cycling, swimming, hiking and strength training mainly) and go for occasional slow jogs, 10-20 minutes at a time. And of course I am grateful for that. It could have been way worse. But it doesn’t take away the fact that going back to square one and not knowing, yet again, how long you’ll have to wait is really difficult. I had prepared mentally, physically and practically for this moment - and when it doesn’t turn out as expected, it’s extremely difficult for the mind to shift focus all of a sudden.

But maybe it’s in these moments that I truly grow stronger, even if I am not aware of it until much later?

Right now I am allowing myself to be sad, to feel all the feelings that come up. But I also know that isolating myself at home in my apartment wouldn’t make me feel any better.

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So every day life continues. I keep working on tasks and projects. I spend time with loved ones and family. I do my rehab. A little less enthusiastic at the moment perhaps, but I do it nevertheless. And I trust that things will work out soon enough.

Wish you all an amazing weekend!

Love & light,

Jënni ♥️

New beginnings

Finally the day has come for me to breathe some new life into my website again.

Those of you who have been following me on my social channels for a while know that I love to share my projects, adventures and thoughts with you - in words and in writing. But lately I’ve felt the need to express myself even more, and there is only so much space available in the little caption box that Instagram offers. There are so many things I want to share with you!

I’m not going to bore you with all the details of the reasons why I’ve chosen to become more active again, but all in all I hope that this website will play a part in allowing me to do the things that I am most passionate about in life. Pretty abstract eh? Believe me, I am not even sure myself yet what that means. But what I do know is that after a long period of feeling lost, scattered and hopeless in life, I can sense that a new and exciting chapter has started. The energies are shifting.

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This journal will, most of all, be used as a platform to ventilate the thoughts and ideas that constantly seem to run through my mind. It will be used to tell stories, high and low. No filters. Just pure and honest words from the heart. And I hope that you, in turn, will feel inspired to get a little bit more in touch with yourself. To have the courage to choose a new trail and to go on unknown adventures.

So thanks for tuning in. For taking your time to read this. I’m looking forward to share my journey with you. Now let’s see what the future has in store for us!

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Until next time!

Love & light,

Jënni ♥️